This, my friends, is my attempt at understanding a friend and why she does the things she does once and for all….
Your life is yours alone. Others can try to persuade you, but they can’t decide for you. They can walk with you, but not in your shoes. So make sure the path you decide to walk aligns with your own intuition and desires, and don’t be scared to switch paths or pave a new one when it makes sense.
Why is it that some people can walk through life, being less than a good person, yet never seem to get called out on it? Why is it ok for some to lie and manipulate a situation to make themselves look angelic and Annabella out to be the bad girl? Why do people actually believe them? Why does it seem like she is always left with someone’s mistakes trying to make them right? A flaw in her nature I guess.
Sometimes I think she feels like she would get more of what she wanted if she did the same things as the people she tries so hard to not become.
Why must she take the high road and not speed off into the fast lane just like them?
Why does she have to follow the rules when no one else seems to? Why does it seem that what is ok for some – not ok for all? And why does she have to be held accountable all the time by these same people? Why is it ok for them to point fingers at her? Why must they deflect all that they are doing wrong back onto her?
Why is she to blame? Don’t they know when they point one finger at her, four fingers are pointing right back at them? Why is she getting into trouble for something she had never done yet, those who have done it, get away with it? Why does she work so hard? Why is she such a honest person? Why do morals and ethics mean so much to this girl?
Why do I bother? I guess I will never know.
Life gets much easier when you learn to accept all the cards you have been dealt and keep going.
She has come to accept who she is, a cross she gladly bears till she is gone.
I one time asked her what lessons she had learnt from living all these years and her simple reply was “If life has taught me one thing, I guess it would be taking a passionate leap is always worth it”.
She has no regrets and faces life everyday with a smile on her face, how that woman continues to be happy, I will never know.