It’s okay, I’d be jealous too.

No matter how strong we think we are, unforeseen change can cause the best of people to drift apart as wide as the clouds are from the ground. I thought they were the best couple i knew (Kwesi and Addi), considering all the things they had been through and still together .He wanted the best for her and she was the happiest girl in her world i guess.

It was March 2013, and I didn’t have any money that morning so i had skipped class and stayed in.I called my folks to send me money but it wouldn’t arrive until the next day.My savings were gone, burned through in a misguided attempt to breathe life back into an old web project i had started a few months back.

I had called Addi to ask if she had any food, fortunately for me she also wasn’t feeling too good and had skipped class.I asked if she would want me to come over but she insisted that she was rather going to come to my place which i agreed.
Big mistake. It was the worst, most humiliating mistake in my whole life.

So here is the deal, Addi and i were friends before she met Kwesi, we hang out often, laugh, talk, etc. In fact it was only because she was dating him that he had become my friend. Several times i he had jokingly remarked about how close his girl and i was and we had laughed it off.

Anyway, she came over and since she wasn’t feeling well got onto my bed and laid by the wall, we talked the whole time and she drifted off to sleep at around 1:pm, i also later fell asleep. I woke up around 2:15pm or earlier i think to the sound of angry rants from the next room, Kwesi’s room. Addi was still sleeping and my room mate had also come back from lectures and was on his computer Facebooking. I asked him what the whole noise in the other room was about and he gave me a note he said he found at the door when he walked in.It read :

“I love you Addi but not today, i love you for all the wonder you are but just not today, i love you for the kind words you say to me but today its not there, to betray me with that guy is the worst feeling ever and i cant recover from such betrayal. Go on stay with him, don’t come back when he breaks your heart.”

The guy had apparently walked in on us whiles we were both asleep i guess and snapped, he had jumped to a false conclusion about what had happened and he was pissed really Bad.I was later informed he had been restrained from punching me in the gut while i slept earlier on and i owe him an apology which made no sense to me by the way, i mean how was his insecurity my problem? She was in tears begging this guy as if her life depended on his love. I couldn’t take this any more, i had to do something.

Trying to “stay positive” and “keep calm” was almost impossible. And no matter how i tried to be cool i couldn’t, i just had to give this guy my a piece of my mind. I got punched in the face after a few word exchange with Kwesi but i understood the quote:

“Jealousy is a disease, love is a healthy condition. The immature mind often mistakes one for the other, or assumes that the greater the love, the greater the jealousy — in fact, they’re almost incompatible; one emotion hardly leaves room for the other. Both at once can produce unbearable turmoil…”
-Robert Heinlein
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